A couple years ago, 5 years to be exact, I was out of school for approximately 2 years when I got my very first permanent job EVAR! I was ecstatic! I was a (young) CAD Technician going into the biggest Telecom Company in the Caribbean. And . . . I got this job after (what I thought) a botched interview. Ecstatic I tell you! But not only was I accepted to this company, I was also accepted into another fairly 'big' company so I had not just one opportunity but as we Jamaicans would say "de wholla" TWO! Whew! I remember to the date, how that chapter in my life played out. It was April, exactly 5 years ago.
The point of all this really is to show you how important this month is to me. April was the start of my 'career' in a prominent Telecom Company and I have indeed lasted a while. But all good things, or rather, all things (whether good or bad) must come to an end. Right?! What better time to do that than in April 5 years later?! Hmmm, April and 5 seems to be important things to me right now.
So while I'm embarking on this journey to close this chapter in my life and open the next, I cant help but feel an overwhelming knot forming in my thought, the butterflies in my stomach, the headaches of questions on constant replay:
- What am I gonna do?
- What can I do?
- How will I do anything?
- How will I pay the bills?
- How will I survive?
- Again, What am I gonna do?
- Am I sure about this?
It doesn't help when people ask me these questions and I cant explain them. Heck, I cant even find the answers for myself.
So why am I making this decision you ask (if you did)? Because, at some point in our lives we come to a realization that ALL this, all the work we do just to pay the bills, all the crap we put up with, all the stress we endure MEANS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING if we don't truly love and enjoy what we do! Think about this for a second - if you really and truly loved everything you did at your job, would you mind the stress? Would you care that your boss is an ass? Would you care that your pay is below standard? Well, that one would still matter to me, but it would be a whole lot more bearable, right?! Would you mind how long you stay up working at night? or on the weekends? Answer is . . . No! None of this would matter to you if you really, I mean REALLY loved your job!
So with this in mind, I've decided to start my next chapter with doing stuff I actually like doing. And while 5 years ago April marked the start of this chapter, 5 years later April now marks the end of this chapter and the beginning of something NEW!
Am I excited to start something NEW?! Hell Yessssss!
Am I anxious to play around so I can find my passion?! Oh Yessss!
Am I scared to step out into the unknown?! . . . o.O "It scary nuh backside."
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